it’s funny how life works out
in our minds we set aside things we do not wish to happen, like fall in love.
but one day, on one boring day, you came into my eyesight and my mind forgot about everything I pushed aside
that day i fell in love, causing my life to change forever
we had a bond, an unbreakable bond. it started off as something so little and worked it’s way up to something so big. We had created a level of trust, and love, that I have not reached with no other, and as we grew stronger, i became happier. you were my better half. we laughed, and we joked and turned every small moment in to something so precious. that’s what i liked about you, you could always make the little things appear bigger than they seemed. but they say time flies when your having fun… sadly, the fun ran out, and that’s when the pain began..
You see i’ve been through enough to know my boundaries, but with you they were limitless. I continued to let you break me down, to make me weak, because i loved you and I saw the good in you no matter how poorly i was treated. you took control of my mind and I was the passenger. i watched your every move, where you steered and turned and i began to learn the direction that you were headed, but i just couldn’t let the journey end, i couldn’t bring myself to end it so soon. you knew me well, so you knew each and every way to break me, and that’s what you did. every secret I told you during our moments together, every fear became a weapon and it crushed me. Things we spoke about in private became public and that was the final blow. you left me gasping for air in a bloodbath on the floor, in the place that was created for just you and I, from all the damaged you caused. I silently screamed for you, but you never came.
I cried, and cried, and cried some more. I began to question myself… wondered why I wasn’t good enough..wondered how i could have made it work. I starved myself. spent days and days in a dark room, lonely, isolated, trying to piece back my broken hurt. I was losing myself as the days went on. I was going mad for a person who left me to fix a broken spirit I did not create. Once again i was alone. I would dream about you. I would wake up screaming, tears streaming down my face and eventually I would cry myself to sleep and the process would repeat itself. my days were weary. I would try to write to let go of the pain, but it was only temporary. that feeling of emptiness and hurt would come drifting back in and my mind wept softly because it missed you. every remedy was a failure and i could not be fixed.
I am trapped in the mist of your love.
a prisoner waiting to be set free. I will find myself, and when i do, she will emerge from the dark and she will shine so bright and you will realize that you were the one who lost in the end. that she needed you, and you failed to be there, so she found someone else. she found someone to patch up the wounds you created and to show her a love so deep that left her so glad it didn’t work out with you.